exactly 2 years before around this time. i would have been crying. seriously crying big.

it's funny how 2 years have passed. in 3 weeks time. i'll be enterting another phase faced by all men borned of Singapore. National Service. it'll be another 2 years of my life.

for the past 2 years of my life. i have been drifting along my life. with no aim whatsoever. many things has happened. and many i have hurt. exactly 2 years ago. the love of my life and my cca. they were both i hold dearly in my heart. something that i never want to lose. but... as all stories of yore i wonder how 2 years from now. how life would be like for me.

someone once told me NS will make me mature. but is it really true? we may mature in age. but do our hearts and minds mature along with age? it's funny how this statement can hit me. but i am wondering if this may be true. maybe it'll help me pull myself out from my perpetual frog hole and lift me up into the world again.

2 years on and i have been dwelling in my frog hole. looking at the skies above me. many a times it has been rather gloomy above this hole of mine. all i could see were dark clouds and perpetual rain. often, having to swim in the water. no matter how much i swam. i just couldn't understand anything at all which includes myself and why i am like this.

what will life hold for me 2 years down the road? will you still be in my heart, mind and dreams. constantly reminding me of my failures? or would i have found the love of my life to stick with me forever?

just a simple quote to end my emo post i suppose?

one may hold no contempt for the future, for it never seems to be near enough to grasp.